Here is yet another take on the most-asked question I have ever received. It is very, very important to understand how brain and body work together in facilitating best results for recovery efforts.
It can be challenging to realize we know so little about how our body works, what causes our moods, why we hate or love one thing or another, and what to do about it all. But knowledge is the only reliable source of power, and when we have knowledge, then we can make choices about what to try next to tackle our toughest recovery challenges.
I can also say that simply asking this question shows a basic understanding that the brain must have enough nutrition to think through these tough issues – so it is clear this reader is working hard on her recovery, even when it feels especially difficult! Bravo!
Q. How do you get to the point where you are OK with the weight gain in recovery? I hate my body more than I did before and it is causing me to be depressed, turn to other self-soothing behaviors, and actually question if I really want recovery or not.
A. This is a tough one for everyone in recovery, isn’t it! Part of getting okay with weight gain is giving your brain enough time to get caught up with your body’s changes. Studies have shown that anorexia causes a shrink in brain tissue size and density, but a return to stabilized nutrition reverses that shrinkage. So the brain, which includes the vision and sensory perceptions we use to relate to ourselves, our bodies, and the world, is recovering too. Your eyes will continue to “see” with Ed’s eyes for a time, and during that time the weight restoration will feel particularly intense emotionally. (more…)